Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Day 2

2 hours at 29.5" again today. Definitely easier than yesterday, even when sitting. 2 hours again tomorrow and then I increase to 4 hours on Wednesday. I feel like I could already increase my wearing time, but I don't want to go too fast the first week.

I think my biggest issue is food. Man, I am so used to instant gratification and heavy foods. I used to eat clean and when I had my second kiddo I just gave up. It was easier to eat on the go while running a business, working the business and raising two kids than it was to cook or to prepare meals ahead of time. Even though healthy food tastes so much better to me, I still have that crazy urge to just grab something quick and horrible for me

. I need to launch a full scale grocery store visit, but I did manage to snag some healthy snacks as well as dinner tonight. I had a lovely Cesar salad with white meat chicken for dinner. I munched on some yummy granola throughout the day, as well as some pears and organic bananas. Picked up more Almond Milk (was bummed that they were out of the Hint of Honey!) and protein shake mix and some fiber filled cereal (no sugary cereals for me anymore! I think I will hit the store tomorrow and see what I can work with. It doesn't help that I am an incredibly picky eater.

It feels good to be getting out more as well. I work from home, so I don't have to leave the house until we run out of food, haha! I'm kidding, I am just making a point to be more active since I could laze about half the day and nobody would bother to chastise me.

My 2 corsets from Isabella Corsetry arrived today and they are gorgeous. I ordered the Petite Josephine in a pink and blue floral on black, and the Victorian Underbust in Teal Blossom. Having a couple higher quality corsets has me itching to get one from Romantasy. Not that my MCC and Timeless Trends are bad quality...for OTR corsets they are surprisingly well made and fit better than expected. But even with just wearing these new corsets for seasoning the difference was marked. They are lighter, yet sturdy, and the minute I laced them on they were already clinging to my curves.

 Okay, it is bedtime for me. My eyes are droopy. To recap, today was about a 2 in terms of difficulty when laced in, but a good 8 when it comes to resisting the temptations of cupcakes and chocolate bars. At least I didn't give in!

Til tomorrow,

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Day One

Measurements:

Underbust: 35

Waist: 33"

Hip: 40.5"

Derriere: 43"

Oh how unhappy I am with those measurements! I looked at my uncorseted body in the mirror last night and almost cried. Despite having lost some weight (since October I have lost 1.5 inches at the underbust, 1.5 from my waist, and 2 from my hips!),  I am still at my heaviest. I weighed a couple pounds less when I was pregnant with my son! This is what emotional eating can do. I lost my mother and turned to food and lethargy. I should have gone to see my doctor, but I was in a fog and didn't realize my meds weren't working.

I lost my father in December. It's harder than when I lost my mom because I am now an adult orphan and have to find my place in the world without my parents. My dad was my superhero. I love him so very much. Losing him has been the hardest thing ever. But I am on the right meds now and my depression isn't running rampant. I'm not coping by eating and sitting on the couch. I invested in new Yoga and Pilates equipment and am eating clean. I am remodeling my house and getting out more. I miss my dad every day, but I am grieving in a healthier way.

My corset also helps with depression and anxiety. I have been plagued with anxiety my entire life. I have yet to have an attack while corseted. My corsets are like my armor.

I am currently cinched in at 29.5 inches. It's very tight. Yet not very uncomfortable. When I am standing it just feels like pressure. Sitting can get a little tough after awhile, but still only at about a 3 or 4. I wasn't sure I could get down this far, but I am apparently a bit squishy. Past this should be fun though, since I do have some muscle hiding underneath my winter fat!

I have found a new friend on Ig. He corsets as well, and has some of the neatest custom corsets including Pokemon and Mario. It's nice to have people to talk about corsets with. I could talk corsets all day long, I swear. Ann is also amazing, tolerating my silly questions without making me feel like I'm being a pest. I can only hope to be so knowledgeable someday! I also love that she is the epitome of class. Corsets have become so sexualized over the years. I have been asked why I wear bedroom wear out several times and have had to explain that the corset was not invented for the bedroom. Yes, they are sexy, but considering that they restrict movement somewhat.....well, you know where I'm going.

Dinner tonight was some yummy California veggies and rice. Then some mango slices a couple hours later. The a handful of nuts. I am definitely a grazer, so eating this way doesn't bother me at all. In fact I love that my corset acts somewhat like an external lap band. My biggest issue has been overeating. I was eating just to feel better so I would just hork down a ton of whatever it was that tasted the best. I also have a bad habit of only eating once a day, so this is beneficial to me in so many ways. Earlier in the day I also had a protein shake, and I have to admit that I have yet to give up my decadent morning Latte. That will be the harder to let go. I have a serious love of coffee, but I do have a great coffee recipe that tastes fabulous but has no refined sugar or saturated fats. I do need to make sure that I am getting enough fiber though. I may have to check into a supplement. I kind of fear them since I have issues with anything gritty or with a watered down flavor.

My two hours are up now and I have to say that was easier than expected. Then again I have been wearing my corsets regularly for the past month or so and I usually lace down to about 30 - 31", I have two beauties from Isabella corsetry coming this week so I will have seasoning to do. I am getting very antsy to add a Romantasy corset to my collection though!


Friday, January 27, 2017

Testing. Testing....Can anyone hear me?

Hello, universe. First posts are always awkward for me. I never know where to start. I'm going to just jump right in today otherwise I will sit here for hours trying to find the right opening line.

I fell in love with corsets when I was very young. I saw an old western with a damsel in distress who was wearing a corset and fell in love with how she looked so feminine and curvy. I have no idea what movie that was, but I must have been about 5 or 6. When I was a teenager my friends and I were into Madonna, and while what we were wearing did not qualify as actual corsets, I loved how they made me look and feel. I graduated from Bustiers to your run of the mill Frederick's of Hollywood fashion corsets, complete with horrible plastic boning and tiny hook closure. I had no idea where to find actual corsets, so I suffered in those. Once the internet came into my life, I was able to find actual corsets, but still only wore them on special occasions. I bought mine so that they closed in the back immediately, because I didn't know better. I cinched them tight as hell thinking that's what you're supposed to do. In fact , I was wearing a beautiful custom corset when my husband proposed, and when he hugged me after I said yes....well, let's just say it was so tight and he was so happy that I ended up with a tiny fracture. My doctor said it was from my husband's strength, and I have to agree since my hubby is a big guy and forgets how strong he is. Luckily my rib healed perfectly and I was given the all clear,  but it still led me to shy away from corsets for awhile.

Then my father passed away. I lost my mother to lung cancer in 2014 and had just pulled myself back together. My dad had COPD and had been close to death many times since mom passed. In fact, my hubby lived with him for 9 months to help him regain his strength after RSV almost killed him. He was doing so well that he was ready to be alone, and then out of nowhere his lungs failed. He was going to be sent to hospice and would have to live on a CPAP 24/7. He didn't want to live that way and was tired and missed my mom. He passed on 12/6 with me holding his hand.

Losing him changed my world in so many ways. I love him so much, but I was so bound to my family that I didn't dare show certain parts of me, like my love for funky hair colors, or corsets.

I went online and met Sylvia from Mystic City Corsets and ended up ordering 3 corsets from her. I loved them enough to order a fourth. Then my husband decided to try a men's corset for his back (he has a fractured L1, a botched surgery and a few other issues) and found Timeless Trends. I ordered matching corsets for us. See the trend? I have 11 corsets at the moment, and am planning on going custom next.

I started reading about corsets online, and that led me to waist training. I'll admit that I coped with losing my mother by eating and sitting at home feeling bad. I gained so much that I was at my heaviest ever. I actually broke down one night and sobbed. I immediately changed my eating habits and decided that since I had always wanted to corset and have that amazing hourglass figure, I was going to do my research and give it a serious shot.

I am staring my new waist training program on Sunday and could not be more excited. I know, what about all the bad things you read about corseting? I assure you that when done safely and correctly, corsets, waist training and tightlacing are perfectly safe. There are so many myths surrounding corset wearing, many of them far-fetched. Yes, we can breathe. No, we don't need to have any ribs removed. But I will get to all of those in time. My waist training program was designed just for me and my body by the amazing Ann Grogan of Romantasy Exquisite Corsetry.

I found Ann and Romantasy while devouring information on Lucy's Corsetry. Lucy has an amazing website and YouTube channel devoted to all things corset, complete with scientific information on the effects of corseting on the organs, muscles and nerves, etc. I was looking for more information on waist training since I had decided that I was ready to commit, but did not want to go too fast and risk injury. She mentioned that Ann offers waist training coaching and I immediately went right over to Romantasy and signed up for one. Ann is so very sweet and knowledgable and my waist training plan was done within a week. I also received a copy of her book Corset Waist Training and devoured it within 2 days (I'll be posting a full review of her book Corset Magic here as well.) The Romantasy website has a wealth of information as well, and I could browse the pictures of custom corsets for days.

Now I feel like I am armed with enough information to waist train safely, and I know Ann is an email away if I have a question (which is wonderful since I have had some iffy interactions when just asking about a custom corset, nonetheless waist training questions.). Have I raved about Ann and Romantasy enough yet? Honestly I just love that Ann not only offers amazing custom corsets made by renowned corsetiers, but also educates about corset wearing, waist training and tight lacing. She is so sweet and warm, and I immediately felt like I had a friend as opposed to participating in a business transaction.

Back to waist training... My goal is to go from a 33" natural  waist to a 30" natural waist in 3 months. My ultimate goal is to get back down to a 24" waist measured over my corset, but I know that will take time. I'll be combining waist training with Yoga, Pilates, and walking/running since the corset is not a magical fix that will just make me lose weight with no effort. It's a tool, albeit a gorgeous tool that also makes me feel like a Princess!

I will be posting her daily as part of my waist training plan. I know that sharing with the entire internet will help me hold myself accountable.

With love,
Vixx